A New Week; A New Outlook!

Yep, the title says it all!!! Today is the first day after a week that I've been able to look up from a stack of envelopes. In my panic over not having enough Christmas money available for my son's "want/need" list, I decided that since I'm not working this year that I'd address envies.... Yes, you heard correctly! This morning, I neatly packed up all 500 finished envies so that I will be able to get ANOTHER 500 tomorrow...... and get this, 500 is "small beans" there are ladies that I know that are doing 1,000 during the same amount of time. So, my weekly "thankful" is that I finished the first addressing job before the deadline! Something else that I've had to face this week and more than anything I'm embarrassed to admit it but I had my very first Design Team rejection. I wasn't even going to tryout and then at the last moment I decided to and all along, I really didn't expect to get it but I was never prepared for my reaction.... When word came through that I didn't get it, it really hurt and being a "big cry baby" that I am, I cried several times over it... Why??? I'm not sure, maybe it was because it was my first time trying or maybe it was because I loved the kit club so much.... My husband didn't understand why it upset me so much and I can't explain why we ladies react to things the way that we do... If you're like me (and this is the best explanation that I can come up with) we try SO hard to please and even if we don't see something as being in our reach, we put ALL of our heart and soul into anything that we do and that's what I did in this case. After thinking long and hard about it, I realized that I wasn't as upset about getting turned down as I was about knowing that I hadn't submitted my best. I picked my favorites and the ones that meant the most to me on a personal basis so when those didn't get me through, I was angry with myself because the "perfectionist in me" started screaming out, "You Dummy, You Don't Submit Based on Personal Feelings & Now Everyone Has Seen You Fail!" Anyways, I've been licking my wounds all week and I'm ready to come out of hiding over it..... I suppose the lesson here is that you just pick yourself up each time that you fall and you just keep going at what you want but in a different direction and harder! Why does it seem that some people are perfect at everything that they do and that perfect just comes easy for them? I do have to make note that for a first attempt, I could not have went through a better kit site...... First of all, the owner sent emails to everyone that tried out (which alone is admirable) but she was SO kind and caring about it (she's such a positive as well as delightful lady to deal with anyway!) I am really happy for the ladies that did make it especially a couple of them that I've become very fond of and I did do a dance of joy over one certain lady making it because she didn't make the last one and even though she was sad at the time, she remained patient, tried again this time and got it!!!!! So today is Monday, a new week, a week to be thankful, time to leave my "pity party" and MOVE ON!!!!!!!